Ive been workin. Hard. I'm trying to get myself together and teach myself a higher level of discipline. Ive been goin hard on the school tip, I want to be the best student possible, on some straight nerd geek shii, but I dont care. The thing is it feels good to me when I work like that and get things done and see the awards from it but the deeper I go into this mindset I feel like Im becomin a robot. Ive always felt like I was kind of outside the realm of things and this new mindset Im trying to build pulls me into the realm and I really dont feel like myself. My basketball coach used to always say in order for the team to win we all had to "buy into the system." I feel like Im buyin into the system but it almost feels like Im sellin my true self out. Its weird to me because everything Im trying to do is good for me and will shape me into a better person but Im shying away from it, iont kno maybe I'm afraid to step into the greatness I can have. I feel like God gave me the capabilities to do anything I focus on and dedicate myself to. Im just goin to pray and continue on my current path and hope that I can maintain myself in all aspects and facets. 35oz til the world go.
Maybe this is just training camp for the league.
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